I could barely type let alone sign in last night. I had that much to drink last night at the Christmas party. I couldn't even speak English towards the end of the night, which is not a good sign. When I get well and truly wasted I speak Japanese and not English. I don't know why that happens. It just does. Anyways, I know that towards the end of the night I did not enjoy myself... I should have known to stop... Why did I keep going? I don't even remember.
Lesson - When it comes to alcohol, there is a limit, even if you think it won't do anything to you.
I know I didn't do anything over the top, but I also know that I was sorta in another dimension compared to everyone else. I had... Okay... You know what? I can't even remember how much I had. That is bad. I normally don't do this sort of thing. Normally... I just have a couple and enjoy the night, but for some reason or another I kept going thinking I was going to be okay... I wasn't. Drinking that much at a work Christmas party, probably not a good idea. I suppose I will know today and on Monday just exactly how much of a dick I made of myself in front of colleauges.
I don't think it was anything too serious, but still I majorly regret drinking so much that night. I still have no clue as to what really drove me to lose control... Damn it.
I got a bit emotional too, because my assistant manager asked some probing questions. I don't want to go into detail about it. It still hurts to think about it. I know that I am not completely happy with things as they are right now. That honesty showed through the liquor. It was a horrible atmosphere after that many drinks. I hate myself for going that far. I just hope I did nothing wrong. One thing I do know, I am embarrassed about it.
Take care of yourselves...unlike me.
James
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