Lesson Twenty Nine - Crushed, Bothered and Slammed.

Today is my late Grandmother's birthday, she died in November of 2001. My sister and her boyfriend had the day off today so they went off to her grave up in Warrandyte. Apparently it's not far from my sister's boyfriend's house. She said it was the only grave there without flowers. My Grandfather never visits. My Dad has since she died, but not very often. I dunno what's up with that, I guess we cope with death our own ways. Still I think that's sad.
Today it was hard letting go of things past and it made me look at my life in a bit of retrospect. You think of things and how it has made an impact on you. But sometimes you need to sever ties or let things go in order to fully get over them. It's sad but it's true.

Lesson - Sometimes burning bridges is the only way to repair damage caused in the past.

Lately I have been bothered by how things change or how things don't change. I was there the whole time and it didn't bother me much until today. Two friends are at odds with each other and no longer speaking. I don't feel comfortable being caught in the middle of that. I just want things to get better. I certainly hope they do, because right now, I feel like crap about a lot of things, personally and just with the world in general.

Work was so busy it wasn't funny. It was all quiet up until about 11:30am, then it just got packed. It's like everyone slept in and decided to go shopping. It was so busy. It wasn't without it's good points though. There was a girl who walked in and I have to say she was absolutely stunning. My assistant manager said she wasn't pretty, and then she said that she thought the girl at the coffee place was better. Yeah, thanks. I'm trying to get away from that. Anyways, this girl was really nice and friendly and when she smiled at me, this butterfly in stomach feeling came over me, I haven't had that feeling in such a long time. I also didn't get a break until about 3:30pm, thanks to bad rostering.

Lesson - It is a good idea when making rosters to have people's shifts overlap, so people can cover others.

Well as soon as I got home I was buggered. I just stayed in bed and relaxed. I hope work tomorrow is not as busy. Take care of yourselves.

James