Today seemed normal enough and sure enough for the most part it was. Today I resolved to let some things in my heart go. I don't want to fall into the same trap over and over again. I really don't want to see my heart smashed like it has been or been made to feel inferior like I have made it. So I let it go, I gave up. I moved on. And you know what? I think it's good, I just hope to have the strength to be able to follow through with it now.
Lesson - Some things are worth fighting for, however it is important to not confuse determination with stupidity. We need the wisdom to be able to know when something is just not worth the trouble it causes us and move on to the next battle.
So to the things I had resolved to release from my heart, you gave me some amazing feelings and some wonderful dreams. However that is all you have given me, you have taken far more than you deserved. Farewell.
I was going through some old things today and I found some old drawings I did about two years ago. I saw one character I had made up and I remember drawing him a lot. Somehow I forgot all about him and continued to draw others. But I think I will try to do something with him and bring him back to life.
A lot of things have given me a new drive and I certainly hope that I can maintain this or at least be consistent (like I have done so with this blog so far!).
When I got to work today I received a surprise, my best friend was back from Cairns! I was pretty happy to see him, things had been pretty different without him around. He was the guy to go to when you were bored or wanted to hang out and have fun. It was so good to see him. He hung around for a bit and told me what he had been up to. He was down for about a month as he was here for Christmas with his family. He told me he was happy up there and would stay there indefinitely. Oh well, he's here now and that's all that matters! I'm glad he's found something. He even got a tattoo. Now I want to get one, my mother freaked out when I told her. My sister on the other hand was more than willing to recommend some places. We tried to get a hold of my other best friend, so that the three of us could hang out, but he had a long day at work and was really tired. I hope that after work or something tomorrow we could play pool or something. I really would love to see us, the three amigos, back together again. What with me planning to finish my studies and go to Japan in six months time, this precious time I have with my friends is fleeting and I want to enjoy those times with them.
Lesson - Time stands still for no one, make the most of the time you have with the people in your life. You only get one chance.
After Japan, I am considering moving inter-state so that I can experience things elsewhere. I was hoping to go to New South Wales sometime this year but those plans will have to wait as I prepare to finish things off and do things I have dreamed about for so long.
Today was a much better day. Take care of yourselves.
James
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